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7th August, 2013
noun (pl. realities) [mass noun]
the state of things as they actually exist, as opposed to an idealistic or notional idea of them
He watches her; standing erect and tall, a light blush on her face, Sokka wonders how the outcome would have changed if only he realised sooner. Not her feelings, which he knew of for many more years than he would like to admit, but his own.
He sees her make the first move, throwing her arms around the neck of the man Sokka wishes didn't exist. She takes another bold step, sealing her fate with a kiss, and the tears leaking over his eyes and down his cheeks are hidden in the crowd.
He waits a moment to approach them, and offers a hug to his oldest friend. She barely reciprocates, so caught up in the festivities. He gives her his boomerang, a token of their friendship; to serve as a reminder. He tells her he is happy for her, but she doesn't hear him. Perhaps he will pretend that the lie doesn't hurt.
Perhaps he will pretend that he said it, merely to convince himself, or her, of his sincerity, and to make the ache in his heart subside. But, it isn't true. What once was a simple hug or a smile has become something ugly and choked, and as he walks away for the final time, he wonders whether she sensed it too. Looking back one last time, he knows she didn't. The only thing to ever get past Toph Beifong, and he isn't even around to see it. But then, it wouldn't be there if he remained, would it?
Notes: the last paragraph is directly inspired by a quote in 1984.
- "And perhaps you might pretend, afterwards, that it was only a trick and that you just said it to make them stop and didn't really mean it. But that isn't true. At the time when it happens you do mean it. You think there's no other way of saving yourself, and you're quite ready to save yourself that way."
- ―Julia to Winston in 1984, pp. 369
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