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|Ch. 1 (But It Still Hurt)|
Fear. The thing I used to keep all of my subjects in check. My most powerful weapon. Every more powerful than bending. When I used fear to control those around me I never thought, not even for an instant, someday I might be afraid. But I am afraid.
It's been a few weeks since Sozin's Comet and all I do is sit in my cell and face the back wall so I can't see anything but the wall. Zuko hasn't come to visit me in prison nor has his wife Mai. However, I do have one regular visitor, Ty Lee. Every week she comes to my cell and tries to speak to me, but I don't answer. So she just sits there and I just sit there. I don't respond because I don't want to hurt her feelings by yelling at her. At least that's what I tell myself. I don't talk to her because I know if I do I'll break down. Conceal, don't feel.
Zuko is convinced I have a mental disorder, but Mai thinks I'm just a monster. Ty Lee thinks I just fell on hard times. All these people are trying to figure out what's wrong with me, but I know. I was manipulated. My whole life I was told to live a certain way. Does that make me evil? Now all I knew was ripped away and I am nothing but the shell of Fire Princess Azula.
Thoughts swirl in my head constantly. I see the things I've done and the people I hurt. In those times I say I didn't care, but I did. How could I disappoint father after Zuko did already? Many are mad at me for going along with my father, but they don't understand. I had to. After all only the Avatar could take down my father.
One day about an hour or so after Ty Lee's normal visiting time, someone came in the door. I could feel his presence. I knew who it was, but don't ask me how. I then said the first words I've said to anyone other than the guard in my cell, Ozon. Still facing the wall I said, "Well well. All hail Firelord Zu Zu."
I could just feel the childish anger in him build up but he didn't blow like I thought he would. "Azula we need to talk."
I laughed a little, "I don't have to do anything I don't want to."
"Azula listen. I need you for an important mission," he said simply.
I raised my head and turned around, "I'm listening."
"It's Long Feng," he said and instantly roll my eyes. I hated him.
"What has the poor little man done now?"
"He's retaken the Dai Li and is using it to attack the Fire Nation colonies in the Earth Kingdom," Zuko said.
I brushed a piece of my uncombed hair behind my ear. "I thought the noble Fire Lord would want the Earth Kingdom back in control of its land," I say and chuckle slightly.
"Aang and I have a plan for the colonies and it does not involve giving them to Long Feng building his own personal kingdom," Zuko said and sat down in front of the bars across from me.
"What's in it for me?"
"You'll be freed. Well you'll be out under house arrest and you'll live in the palace with Mai and I." I sigh at the sound of Mai's name, but it's better than prison.
"You can't expect me to go alone," I said and raised my eyebrow slightly.
"Don't worry you won't. You will be accompanied by Ozon, Ty Lee, Mai and I," he replied.
"I'm going to have to say that group is a deal breaker," I turn around and face the wall again.
"Take it or leave it," he demanded.
I had to think this through carefully. Any move I make could show weakness. "Fine I'll do it, but I want the right to be called princess again."
Zuko simply nodded. "We will leave in the morning," he said and left leaving me alone with Ozon again.
'How wonderful,' I thought to myself. 'My perfect chance for freedom.' I laughed slightly and laid down to sleep.
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